todayy i went to that kid Brian's wake. WOW ! he seemed like such a good kid, with such a happy but difficult life. He had said time and time before that the only way he had wished to die was to die HAPPY! ndD i hope to GOD that he did. In every picture, there was always a smile on his face, and his mother didn't seem as distrut ndD all over the place as i would think - instead, she seemed content ndD satisfied with her son's life. After all his has now left ndD traveled to a much better place that in due time we will all reach ndD be free ndD free of worries, anxiety ndD desires. i realized today, how important life truly is ndD how much we (ndD I) take for granted. There are so many things i regret doing, ndD so many times i wishd i could turn back time. HOwever, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON ... ndD whatever doesn't break us only makes us stronger. i've made peace with myself ndD with GOD ndD i kno i will be forever forgiven ndD forever taken care of. And when my time to pass will come, I, as did Brian, will leave happy ndD content with a smile on my face ndD happiness in my heart.
i look back at all the stupid things i've done in the past ndD wonder how i let myself be so0o stupid. even though i've madD some badD choices, i DONT REGRET ANYTHING .... bcus my mistakes help me learn ndD correct my future choices.
***** HOPE, i'm sorry for all that i've done. However, i dont regret anything i've said about justin... i still can not see why you are still with him ndD ruining UR LIFE for him. You could be so much more ndD do so much more. i'm gladD we are "friends" or "acquantences" again ... ndD even though we are not as close as we once were (ndD i wish we come some day get it bacc) i do still love you ndD think of you as a best friend ndD a sister.
****Harry: i'm so0o sorry for what i've done --> enuff said. i hope we could still be goodD frndz. fiine u little fuck ... now that u dissd out my DEDICATION to you ... u're not gonna findD out bout my DREAM ... lolsS to0 badD bcus it was pretty interesting // <33
****Fatema: sorry for bwin a bitch at times ndD having u go thru my ANGER TRIPS lols ... well U kno what happens during my anger trips besides all the singing lol.
****NiColEyy : im sorry for my ignorance, stupidity ndD pride gettin' in the way of our special relationship // i can't believe i lost 3 months of my cousin ndD best frnd. you dont kno how much you help me even though we cget into fights almost every weekend lol te amo mi primita. <333
***Tai: i didnt do shitt to you so0o screww yuuu lol <33
i'm sorry to any1 i've hurt in any type of wayy <333 i love you all ... filakia mwaa <333 | 
